As it should be.
And is.

Dreamed of swimming in a pool at night with B.
The air was cold, wet grass.
Very warm pool. Gorgeous feeling, silky water on skin.

Wedding ended up being fine, they loved me and tipped me well.
Ended up playing NIN and The Cure and having a good time of it.
Though this morning I feel someone beat me up.
Had to carry all the equipment up a flight of stairs. Ugh.
Ok though, because I didn't hit the gym yesterday, so it was a good workout.

Off to a wedding today - a friend of E's.
He took off tomorrow from work so we can get a little rambunctious tonight
if we feel like it.

E is still sleeping, I'm in my office on the couch,
looking out at the grey day. Love it.
Last week was an astonishingly busy week.
Looking forward to a bit of a break next week.
Yeah right... heh.
Still, if it keeps the moolah coming in.

B, it looks like I'll be coming out sooner rather than later.
J says he hired an intern to work with us. I'm glad he's realized he
can't do it all himself. And I like that he called our work 'great'.
Funny how a little positive reinforcement will help with motivation.

Think I hear stirrings in the bedroom. Must dash...

Here at a wedding reception, playing dinner music and stealing a moment away.
Wireless access here, so hooray.

I haven't been blogging much. Busy, busy!
Now G is putting me to shame. Go G! So great to have you back.

This gig is going anything but smoothly.
Well, I should say a few little quirks.

I was to play bkgrd music for the first hour,
but am set up in another room. So much for that.
The bride and groom didn't get here till 6(when that was over),
so they didn't seem to notice...but I bet no tip.

Their wireless system here sucks and was way too quiet.
No one could hear the toasts. Not my fault, but it looks like it is.
Sigh. Switched to my mic.

Then issue with bride/groom song. I have wrong version,
but wireless access to the rescue. Downloady, downloady and I'm all set.
Luckily I checked. Plus the bride told me to fade it after 2 minutes.
What she meant, it turns out, is start playing 2 minutes in.
Caught that one.

Almost time for cake cutting/dances etc.
Then open dancing, when I can breathe easy.
Here till 11... quarter of 8 now.

Going to post this...the continuing adventures....

Such dreams!
I was traveling and wandered into a little copse of trees along the side of the highway
which opened out into an amazing jungle area. It was all incredibly real.
In the distance a huge waterfall. Lush green everywhere. I began climbing a hill
until somehow I realized I was in a huge miles tall cave under the earth filled with
an entire rain forest. Somehow I was hanging from the cave 'roof' by a root.
Holding it in one hand, swinging free over an incredible landscape.
Looking down I could see rivers, forest, the churning waterfall, wispy clouds far below.
I wasn't afraid. Just in awe.
The beauty.
I was soaking it up, trying to really be in the moment
and notice all the beauty.

The dream changed. I left the rain forest and had some anxiety about missing my plane flight,
and then was fixing up an old broken down building into a restaurant(including my old standby,
the anxious waitering dream - I have no pad to write down orders, don't know what's on the menu...),
and before I woke up the dream turned nastier. Bugs crawling under my skin.
Me reaching down and crunching them by pressing really hard.

What does it all mean? Who knows.
I think I'll just let the bug/waiter bit fade away and cherish the beauty and raw breath-taking splendour
of the rainforest and hanging way above it.
Perhaps one of the best things about the dream at that point was my utter satisfaction with being
alone, by myself on this journey. Even when I learned I had missed my plane, I was pretty calm
and into the whole excursion. I remember someone gave me a ride back home in their car,
and I was enjoying the scenery.

Anyway, I'm up and sucking down coffee. Already sore from the gym yesterday,
and ready to do morning yoga in a few. Then its off to Evan's parents for his mom's birthday party.

Later!

In my new(well OK, I found it on the sidewalk, but its clean and lovely) Papasan chair by the window in my office upstairs.
I'm tinkering with computer games(flowers vs. Zombies is fun) and munching baked BBQ chips.
I feel particularly virtuous, because I went to the gym today and gave it my all.
It's been a while. I was shocked to get a postcard asking me to renew my gym membership.
My year is up and I swear it feels like just yesterday that I last renewed.
I'm appalled that I've barely gone. New leaf, turned. Thank you.

I can really breathe today and the constant nagging little chest pains are receding.
Last night I dreamt I was a lion and was charging at people who annoyed me.
I am a lot grumpy the past few days. My temper is at a flash point,
but I've done well keeping it reigned in. I keep telling myself its just toxins flashing and
flushing out of me. Its not real. Just chemicals making me want to throttle someone.
Trashy kids down the block have gotten their dirty paws on a dirt bike and keep riding it
up and down the block. It sounds like a mosquito on steroids and I want to go out
and shove a stick through the spokes next time they whir by.
See what I mean? Growl! But I'm coping.

Today totally feels like Sunday to me.
Its a wee bit chilly and grey, weather I love.
Tonight E and I are watching 'Volver' in Bluray and relaxin'...
We slept in and did morning Yoga.
B, I wish you could just teleport here every morning for Yoga.

Its odd having little work to do.
I worked for 15 minutes this morning and got most everything off my plate.
Except for a music page I have to build for a client's website,
and a music video/slideshow I have to put together for the NYC guys.
Its nice that the Universe is cutting me some slack when I most need it.

Guess that's about it.
Expect I miss my friend G.
Its been 2 months without so much as a comment on my journal entries,
or a phone call or email.
Still, I can't say a word. Not one word.
Wait, I just did. heh.

Later!

Just dont want to get up. Still in bed at 10:15.
Got Evan off to work and just folded up shop.
Climbed back under the sheets for more sleep....ahhh.
I have a sleep debt to work off after the Albany trip and staying
just one tiny toe ahead of exhaustion.
Not so sure if my partner in 'crime', B is faring any better.
She's forced to stay up though. 2 kids and inlaws will do that for ya.

Ok. Time to roll out of bed and do some Yoga.
Then eat.
Then maybe if I'm feeling ambitious I'll hit the couch downstairs
while waiting for the cable guy to show up.

yawn, grunt, scratch, streeeeeetch.

Here at my mom's house. Relatives about to descend.
Gave mom her big gift, an mp3 player, and she seemed thrilled.
Anxious as usual to be home again, but enjoying this time.

Lovely talk last night, B!
Good luck with the crown situation.
I went back to firm denial about my dental situation.
I'll deal with it later, later...(I know I'll be that much sorrier...)

Looks like I might be heading to NYC to direct some commercials for the NY client.
I feel so cosmopolitan. And hopefully, talented.

Ok. Quick update over. Must dash...

Om sweet Om.

Been awhile...



The meaning is obvious.

Click through to embiggen. Worth it. Totally.

April 30, 2009

1. Leo (7/23-8/22)

   The sun is rising just a bit more brightly today and your heart is just a bit lighter. Do you feel the tide turning? Hope is a powerful thing, and you've been able to hold on to enough of it to make a real difference. Blue periods can be tough, but they always result in more self-awareness and contentment. Slowly, you're entering a positive phase of strength, confidence, and knowing what you want. People are ready for the 'new you' to shine!

...................

I can see it. I'm almost completely 'up in my head'.
And ignoring physical needs?
I'm sitting here typing this with a cold-that-wont-quit.

Mt. Redoubt in Alaska is currently erupting, forcing closures to the airport from all the ash.
Yowsa.
Stunning video

...has heavily included this cut from the new Pet Shop Boys album, 'Yes'.
Loved it instantly...

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How many of us remember playing with these.
All of us, that's right.
And how many kids do we know that still play with them.
Did we all have the barn?
And the noises. Can you ever forget the moo when you opened the barn door.


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